Category: Friendship and Fellowship

Unbreakable Ties

*2011 and 2012 Appreciation Post

Looking back at the year that’s about to pass (and the year before), they were undeniably filled with blessings and people that makes our lives worthwhile. Friendship, companionship and most especially fellowship that strengthens and stirs our characters. The people that stitches all the memories and history you are creating and makes up the life that you are living.

I may not be vocal with regards to my appreciation and my actions would tell them how much I love them, I do, I love these people. And I am trying my best in my own little ways to return the favor. I won’t be overly dramatic and I won’t enumerate the things they did for me. All I know is I am grateful and blessed to have them around. Hope to see you again in the coming year/s, loves. Because some ties are simply unbreakable..

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“Faithful friends are a sturdy shelter:
whoever finds one has found a treasure.
Faithful friends are beyond price;
no amount can balance their worth.
Faithful friends are life-saving medicine;
and those who fear the Lord will find them.”

-Sirach 6:14-16 NRSV

Looking forward to an awesome and fruitful year. I remember that feeling back in high school. We were about to graduate and all were excited and sad, as well. Endings and new beginnings are waiting for us. You’ll never know what we’ll look forward to. Will it be the same? Or maybe at least still feel the same? But one thing I am sure of is that I trust in You. Take the clay I am and mold me to your plan.

Cheers to 2013! It’s gonna be legendary!

A Piece of the Cake

A share of the sumptuous masterpiece..

I remember my friend Kukai and I’s motto: “Hindi lahat binibigay” and also: “Mas madaling hulihin ang manok kapag nakatali” back in our early days in college.

“You look happy” a number of people told me these past days. And I am glad that they are noticing that aside from “Tumataba ka” and “Gumaganda ka yata”, emphasizing the latter. Ok. Flatter yourself, dear. =))))

It’s my mother’s birthday and I stayed over the Roxas’ place last night to give them an extra pair of hands for the high rise plate and at Calayag’s the other night. They’re keeping me busy and amused with chitchats and whatsoever in the past months. I am blessed to have them around, indeed. Para Kay God! Hello Narciso, are you there reading this? 😉

Neutral. That’s the word that comes in mind whenever I am asked about my current state – enjoying every slice of the cake one at a time. Indulging on it slowly so as not to ‘umay’ myself. I just want to enjoy what is currently served and not ‘want’ more. It will soon fall into place, in God’s perfect time.

I had a chance meeting and little chat with Arch. Paulo Alcazaren, Editor-in-Chief of Blu Print magazine’s co-writer, Ditas Bermudez at the Pamana: Built Heritage Conservation Seminar at the Filipinas Heritage Library last August 23, 2012. She shared some ideas and the projects their currently working at. She even suggested that I should apply directly at PGAA instead when I told her I wanted to apply at Blu Print for apprenticeship. She offered me some materials and asked me for my e-mail address and also suggested that I should visit a certain library. Hoping to hear from her soon.

The seminar was beyond ‘sulit’. What is sulit, mom? (Baby Josh, 2012) It’s getting more than what you paid for. (Kris Aquino, 2012) HAHAHA. I arrived late. Heritage Conservation Society’s Arch. Noche’s talk was already wrapping-up. It was coffee break and I should say the food is mighty fine. I was waiting for Arch. Mata’s talk and so it goes. Arch. Galicia and Dr. Einsdel’s talk was remarkable. I’m still waiting for the electronic copy of the slides, though. It was an extraordinary experience. I got intimated when I walked in. I was the only student in attendance and they were all professionals – architects, environmental planners, writers, accountants, and etcetera. I am one of the few who had the chance.

And to sum it up, I am having quite a month. I am having a busy, fulfilling and fruitful month of August.

Backslide, nuh-uh..

My God, I’m taking the road I think You gave me to travel on. I may not be fully confident about my decisions, the way I see (it as) right or wrong, or the way I think about it and the way I think it’d end up. But I know, all I know is that You are there. I may stumble and falter along the way; I’ll get back up for You are there. You alone are God. I LOVE YOU. I may not have shown You or said it as much as I could, but I do, yes Lord, I love You. You never failed loving me in every way. You loved me no matter what. How could You in spite? God, I am unworthy of Your Love, Your Salvation and blessings, yet You gave it all for me with no hesitations. And I’m here trying to make sense of it all. God.. I’m holding unto You. As always.

I love You,
Katriz

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There are days that I feel so helpless. This is one of those days that as I stand, sit, or walk in the hallways, I couldn’t find familiarity in any place I would go or look at… I’m scared. I’m stumbling. I’m trembling deep inside my heart and my mind. I’m not secured. About anything I am doing right now, the research, the plates, the people around me, the future. I dunno what’s going to happen. Aint sure if this is even for me, this environment, the work, the people. Too late for backing out, I know. I feel so helpless. This aint what I really want. I don’t even know what I really want. I feel like I’m just hanging and am not going anywhere.

God I’m so sorry.
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If I could just hug You Abba Father and feel the warmth, that I’m secured, that I am loved in Your arms.
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I am isolating myself, backsliding.  “Fellowship” blinks at the side of my sight. Sorry. Sorry for the way. Sorry for the thoughts, the clutter, the decisions, the way I am. I couldn’t wait for 2011 to just pass and make 2012 a better one. Am stuck, am helpless. I  need no resolution not a fan of resolutions, I badly needed a redirection. But then I was reminded by these:

God never promises to remove us from our struggles. He does promise, however, to change the way we look at them. (Max Lucado)

*2011 Forecast and 2012 Resolutions Redirections coming up.

Burning Bridges, Building Walls

Unknowingly, or maybe intentionally, not that I noticed, the walls I once tried to take down is now building itself up from the ruins I didn’t even cared about before. The bridges that had been built is now hanging by a thread–at the verge of collapsing. A sudden force of unusual feeling from within, or maybe he ones or those that are long kept, hidden from the deep or were/we’re just too scared to admit, took it all away. No matter how hard it could be, to try and risk, nothing to lose, regrets are to gain. As long as you tried to keep things as they are, the voice inside your head trying to convince itself. Change is hard.

Scared but acceptance is the key, it’s all or nothing. And all that’s left, all that anyone would need and all anyone could hold on to was hope. In the middle of love and faith was hope.

Sorry for the person I became. It’s who I am hates who I’ve been.

I so hate consequences..

Ecclesiastes 4:10

(20101220, midnight)

There’s a certain pleasure on doing things and enjoying life with another person. Feel like whatever you experienced and witnessed is part of history for someone else is with you the very moment those extraordinaire and nonsense happened. That’s why I prefer I’m with somebody’s company though being alone is okay for some sort, sometimes. Giving an emphasis on the sometimes, so most of the time it’s good to have somebody around. 😉

For your triumphs and whatever. Ready to back you up. Or for the nothingness and senselessness.

Friendship is unnecessary like philosophy, like art it has no survival value

(rather it is one of those things) that give value to survival.

(Nakakamiss pala magsave ng mga thoughts sa telepono ko.Malaki talagang tulong yung Notes na app.)

“Sometimes just the act of sharing a painful secret can relieve some of the pain.”

— Maryland

Meron pang isa si Coelho na nakalimutan ko kung saang libro, basta yung thought nung sinabi niya ay, minsan daw kapag may pinagsasabihan tayo ng isang bagay, masarap sa pakiramdam kasi parang nangyrai talaga siya at di lang isang experience na napagdaanan mo. Part na nga siya ng history. Yung kahit parang hangin lang yung nakarinig/nakarinig nito pero mas maganda pa din yung may ibang tao, masarap sa pakiramdam. Sense of relief.

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Masarap yan sa pakiramdam. Kusang ginagawa ang isang bagay na pabor sayo. Kusa siyang gumagawa ng mga bagay. Kusa siyang nagbibigay. Naghahanap ng paraan para mabigyan ka niya ng oras. At kusa niyang binibigay yung kalinga na nais mo.

That’s all for today. Thank you. =)

Lord, I love You.

My Stupid Mouth

.. has got me on trouble. I said too much again. 😉

But JM? You also said, it’s better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again..?

And now? Oh, I’m never speaking up again. Starting now.

Really Katriz? Really? Hahaha! I’m just singing anyway.

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  • Pasko na pala! May Christmas ~*lights*~ at kung ano ano na kami sa bahaaaay!

Buong Disyembre walang klase. May pinaglalaanan pero ako ay pinabayaan hindi ako hinayaan. Well. Waiting seems to be a part of loving. 😉

Saka, saka! Pahabol. Di ako nagpumilit makasama sa competition ng Glee Club kasi naisip ko sagabal ang pagpapraktis. Awww. Share. =) It was my choice anyway. No one’s to blame. 😉

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  • Heartbreak Warfare

Nakakaloka. Higit siguro sa pagka-disgusto ko sa konsepto ng panliligaw, (yung pursuing, chasing, being chased.. that’s annoying! =) Pero siguro naman kung gusto ko siya, hindi magiging ganun, no? :P) hindi man lingid sa kaalaman ko pero.. Ano ba naman kasi yun? Bakit ba kasi kapag nagmamahal.. E! Eto. Ayoko lang siguro ng konsepto ng sakit. Tapos yung letting go, and moving on. Ay, takot masaktan? Ang korni na nito, I swear. Ah basta. Kasi kung nagmamahal ka, at kung totoo ngang pagmamahal yun, walang salitang let go at move on. Walaaaaaaaaaa! Mahal kung mahal!

Son of a beach ball. Ano mangyayari sa buhay ko kung ang gulo gulo ko?  Hahahaha!

I never loved nobody fully, always one foot on the ground. And by protecting my heart truly I got lost in the sounds..

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Ang dami dami dami dami dami kong gustong ikwento. Ay wala pala. May namimiss ako, kaso di niya ako namimiss e. Sad. =)

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At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, at war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes..

All you need is one.