My quarter life (if I’ll ever live a hundred) year had been a year of travelling, of adventures, of experimenting, of discovery – not just the places I’ve been and not just with the people I’ve met but I’ve also discovered a bit more about myself. Not just who I am right now but also the things I need to work on.
Though my 26th birthday goal didn’t go exactly as planned and I’ve been feeling like I’m stuck in a rut. Now I am confused so as to what I want to do next or even what I want to accomplish anymore. I’m not even sure if I still want the same things I wanted before. I feel like I am floating – just grabbing whatever I could get a hold of. Sure, I had fun but what’s next?
But beyond all these confusions, there are some things I wanted to change within me. Just a few reminders I needed in black and white. So here you go self:
-Spontaneity. Embrace the beauty of strange encounters, chance meetings and misadventures. Life won’t always go as you plan or hoped it would be but there’s a purpose God threw this people and circumstances your way. Let people in, let them mess it up – you can’t be an architect of your whole life and the people around you. Trust Him.
Be free, my dear.
-Patience. I know waiting is not your strong suit. Not everyone moves at your pace, you got to learn to give people the time they need no matter how long it takes. Stop isolating yourself just so you can go on your own pace. Not everyone can keep up with you so easy on your timeline. Easy on yourself, too. Breathe and slow down.
Wait patiently, love.
-Love. You’ve been putting this aside telling people and even yourself (more like convincing) that you’re taking your time. It’s been a year and you’ve been too comfortable at the life you have in solitude and in wandering. Then out of nowhere somebody comes and hits you with an ooh la la la la.. (lol whut) Just be more open, people will surprise you. There’s someone out there for you like you’ve always hoped and prayed for – that would feel home and adventure all at once. And you’d be in the same page (hopefully).
Be free, be patient, and let love in.
-Write. It is your first love anyway, maybe you can start from there. Maybe it’s just your thoughts and nothing special to anybody but bottling it up hasn’t been doing any good for you either. Go back to your journal, or your blog. Let your thoughts flow out like they used to. For you. Even if it’s just for you. Let it out in the world and maybe just maybe, the universe would conspire and hear your yearning and make it happen.
Cos against all odds, against all logic – don’t lose hope.