A Confession, An Obsession

Ok. Fine. I need to let this out. If it would be this easy, I should have done this earlier. But nah. It’s not like when I confess about this thing, it would just go out and it would fade. Gah.

Kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat! What in the world? Isang taon na yan, at higit pa. Alam ko crush mo siya. Alam mo yan, kahit anong deny mo pa. Alam mo sa sarili mo. Hmm!

Kasi naman. Sadyang siya kasi yata yung mga ‘type’ ko. *korni* My kind of guy. Tss. Waaa. Nakakapanlumo. Pero kinikilig akooooo. Sa totoo lang. Wala naman kasi e. Waley talaga. Little things. As in little! Parang ako lang yung gunagawa sa utak ko nun. Hindi naman kasi siya interesado sayo! Like duh?? May girlfriend pa yung tao, ‘high school true love’. Yan ang hirap. Aaaaaa. Please. Stop it. Walang kahahantungan yan. Waaa. Aminin mo na lang kasi sa sarili mo na crush mo siya, kesa naman nagkakaganyan ka. Aminin mo na kasi, gumagawa ka ng paraan na ano, tapos minsan.. basta! Nagdedeny ka pa deep inside. Hooo. Gusto mo naman talaga e. Huhuhu.

Pero wala naman akong ginagawang masama diba? Wala naman akong boyfriend? Wala naman akong sinisira? Hindi naman ako nakikipagclose sa kanya? Bakit ba kasi siya ganun? So kasalanan pa niya ngayon? HAHAHA. Kasi. Kasi. Dapat ng limutin yung maliliit na bagay na yun. Yung mga pangyayari na yun. Para wala na. Pero sana kung gano siya kadaling sabihin, ganun din kadaling gawin. Kailangan ng matapos ang kahibangang ito.

Delusions, please evaporate? I’d like to think that I am obsessing. Yea. And it’s not so good. At all. It’s just infatuation. Besotted. Ugh. And the opposite of love is not hate *daw*. It’s infatuation. OK.

What is strongly denied becomes strongly desired.

Enough of the real JM. Kasi ba naman, nagcha-chat pa. NapapaOMG tuloy ako. Pero seryoso kinilig ako. ._.

Back to you. It always comes around, back to you.. I tried to stay away, but it’s too late..

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